today’s VesakDay .. suppose to go out and pray with my parents ..
but ended up turned down everything ..

when out with DiDi and HUBBY to CityHall
DiDi wanted to buy hi Crumpler’s stuff ..
so HUBBY and ii went with him ..
but he is kind of nuisance .. zZz ..

after that actually going home ..
MelvinKor and JunCaiiDiDi asked me out to Orchard ..
was thinking weather to go anot as ii still have my DiDi LOL .. zZz
ended up at AMKHub with 4guys .. zZz ..
and HUBBY told me that ii am shorter then my DiDi ..
MelvinKor and JunCaiiDiDi agreed when me and my DiDi stand together ..

ii was like .. HUH ?! how possible sia .. zZz ..
super upset about the fact that ii am SHORT !! agrr !! ..
HUBBY told me to eat more vegetable to grow taller ..
kind of really felt the SUAN .. haiis .. nvm ..
BEING tall isn’t something GOOD too ..
think about the fact you wont get privileges to be short ..

or should ii say .. ii can always grow to their height ..
but they can never reach my height again .. !! blehs ..
* being short .. able to lie on HUBBY’s shoulders .. that’s the BEST !! xD *
WHATEVER .. !!

when to SumoHouse for dinner with the guys ..
after dinner DiDi wanted to go home
while the few of us wanted to go for some POOL ..
and there was a argument between me and my DiDi ..
super DuLan .. end up MelvinKor brought him home ..
while me , HUBBY and JunCaiiDiDi when to K-Pool ..
on the way met up with JunHongDiDi .. zZz ..

initially hasn’t got the mood yet ..
kept losing no matter what ..
the Juns’ Brothers played like PROS .. zZz ..
and ii was the one who taught them to play de .. LOL ..

after seeing HER .. the “ feeling ” came ..
ii kind of super tempered and played the game with real skills ..
dunno why .. but ii guess .. ii felt strange ..

but is just that ..
JunCaiiDiDi’s fren called .. a 12yrs old boy ..
and ii was like talking to him on the phone ..
suanning him like Fuck ..
kind of think .. ii am back to the PAST me ..
the very KNN .. ka-jiao kia ..
the way ii speak to the kid is like how AhLian talks ..
or should say .. how like getting into a fight or somehow ..
ii dunno .. just feeling that ii am not on the right track ..

when Kiyuki and her friends came and play ..
the AhLian attitude came to me again ..
the feeling of going up and DiSiao her .. Gan her just came into me ..
ii dunno why .. didn’t put my thoughts into actions
as HUBBY , JunCaii/HongDiDi was there ..
vent my anger onto the pool table ..

talked to JunCaiiDiDi while waiting for my Dad to be back from dinner ..
random thoughts came into my mind ..

standing behind my dad’s car just now ..
in the wind .. reflecting the events that have gone through today ..

looking at Kiyuki .. is like looking into a mirror of my past ..
at times .. ii really want to go up ..
give her a tight slap and say ..
WAKE UP !! YOU CANT SURVIVE BEING A PIA KIA !!
but ii am thinking .. do I have the right to say that ..
ii am a PIA KIA too .. to everyone bahs ..

Vulgarities , hanging around at places at POOLS ,
my speaks and actions .. true enough to show that ii aren’t any good girl ..
parents and relatives have been saying ..
ii am the one that teaches their child bad ..
as time pass .. ii recognized myself to be one of what they are talking about ..
a typical ah lian hanging around in streets at nights ..
but am ii really one ?? .. ii dunno ..

feeling that ii am one at times .. giving the kind of attitude ..
shits and stuff like that .. feeling was great ..
but ii just somehow or rather at other times ..
think it isn’t great at all .. ii felt guilty , evil ..
ii just cant explain who ii really am ..
knowing too much at times really made me NOT myself ..